西瓜日記

疏透陽光的小樹盆景 環繞四週綠而搖地晃呀晃 舒服

一段自然坦白地解釋來方與去向的對話 沒有多餘的應對進退

簡單明亮而整齊潔淨的玻離桌上什麼也沒有

彷彿要的什麼 了然於心

除了不切實際與其毫無關連的日系美少女(小)朋友

愚蠢的男子雙人R&B與噁心的裸女瑜珈

彷彿是這男子在這年紀 僅剩的青春蹤跡

我開始有點擔心…

And trying to say something, something meaningless…sigh

書架排排站立一些莫名不知的書

站在這裡 我很想摒息

對於一排已矣的先賢作品致意

但大概沒太大的興趣

「要不斷問自己這種好的狀態可以持續多久 偉人都是持續很久的」

一如我知道你在持續某種生活方式(如果這裡你覺得太自以為了，請略過)

不管你變怎麼

沒毛(上面與下面)了也好

終於遇到了被雷劈的外星人也好

也不要妄想十年計劃

或是找我仲介

不刻意堅持或驟變

如果你覺得這樣是好

這是一個很難忘的景象

在一個普通得不能再不普通的公寓裡

是不是Jim 給我的支持，還有Billy的樂觀，Jennifer給我的信心，還有感受別人感受，也許是我暫離了不是屬於我的環境，我顯得安定十足，專注在乎，並重新調整態度。

「跟神的永恆相比，一切顯得而毫不足可惜，也短暫得可以」，雖然如平淡過一生一樣，我還是不能接受，也無法體會，但我想那不是壞東西，也沒有壞意。

當一個人似乎克服了原有一直的問題與煩惱那刻，會很想好好的記下來這刻，因為這有可能只是短暫的開念，或是乍現的幸福，一如大多數人想拿短暫與永恆拼命一樣，我也是如此。

我希望當孤單再次來襲時，當自卑降臨時，當忘了什麼時，當全盤否定時，

我能用這樣的力量，用ALANIS的勇敢、范范的雲淡、用誠品裡的答案，對它們 迎．頭．痛．擊。

Hands Clean

If it weren't for your courage none of this would have happened

If you weren't so wise beyond your years I would've been able to control myself

If it weren't for your attention I wouldn't have been successful and

If it weren't for me you would never have amounted to very much



Ooh this could be messy

But you don't seem to mind

Ooh don't go telling everybody

And overlook this supposed sigh

We'll fast forward to a few years later

And no one knows except the both of us

And I have honored your request for silence

but don 't washed your hands clean of this



You're essentially an employee and I like you having to depend on me

You're kind of patience and one day you'll say you learned all you know from me

I know I depend on you like a young kid would to a guardian

I know you crash on me like a young gal would and I think I like it



Ooh this could get messy

But you don't seem to mind

Ooh don't go telling everybody

And overlook this supposed sigh

We'll fast forward to a few years later

And no one knows except the both of us

And I have honored your request for silence

And you've washed your hands clean of this



what part of our history's reinvented and under red rug swept?

what part of your memory is selective and tends to forget?    

what with this distance it seems so obvious?



Just make sure you haven't told on me especially to members of your family

We bet keep this to ourselves and not tell any members of our inner posse

I wish I could tell the world cuz you're such a pretty thing when you're done up properly

I might want to marry you one day if you watch that weight and keep your firm body



Ooh this could be messy and

Ooh I don't seem to mind

Ooh don't go telling everybody

And overlook this supposed sigh