西瓜日記

you wake up, move slowly and smoothly

you look at tiring him on the sofa

you eat nutrient food as possible as you can

you take the pills just as it matters

you take the bus/taxi and go to work

you talk throug the hall fast and enter the room

you have an embarrassed leave during the meeting

you fix your appearance and watch the young lady besides you

you go to parenting class,

you do any needed physical preparation.

you bend your waist,

you take the deep breath,

you feel the kicks from her/him,

you watch the horrible vedio,

and witness the moment of miracle

you eat outside alone 

you go to the bookstore alone

you watch the beautiful eyes of the pity disgarded new life and think of your lucky coming new life

you put on the mask and stay in the place the world leave you and him/her alone.

you line and wait for the maternity check

you heard the strong beats of baby's heart and don't know why something slipping from your eyes. 

Time pm 11:00, he is back, washing the dishes and close to the slept you.

you show him the smiling piture 

are you ready?

not yet

are you ready?

not yet...